“I don’t have a fear of commitment. I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up, especially with people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it, but I keep pushing because I hope this thing, this universe, there’s no way that I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad, if I want it, someone else out there must too.”—(via x-erp)
“It’s your life, quite possibly your only one. Still you find yourself having a vodka at three a.m., waiting for your pill to kick in, with time ticking through you and your own ghost already wandering among your rooms.”—Michael Cunningham (via kushandwizdom)
Most adult children of toxic parents grow up feeling tremendous confusion about what love means and how it’s supposed to feel. Their parents did extremely unloving things to them in the name of love. They came to understand love as something chaotic, dramatic, confusing, and often painful—something they had to give up their own dreams and desires for. Obviously, that’s not what love is all about.
Loving behavior doesn’t grind you down, keep you off balance, or create feelings of self-hatred. Love doesn’t hurt, it feels good. Loving behavior nourishes your emotional well-being. When someone is being loving to you, you feel accepted, cared for, valued, and respected. Genuine love creates feelings of warmth, pleasure, safety, stability, and inner peace.
Last weekend in San Francisco Japan town decieded to have a Ramen Festival with well 6 booths. I don’t know what the organizers of the event were thinking because coincidentally they also had a Jpop Summit, 1000 Treasures event, and other misc events that created mad chaos in little Japan town in San Francisco.
This was the Festival i thought i was going to. Okay so i didn’t notice the “J-pop…
this festival was extremely disappointing. When you’re trying to promote real authentic ramen and even bring chefs over from Japan. Make legit fucking ramen. I don’t want some shit that came out of a bag. I watched them making instant broth using prepackaged tonkotsu and shoyu broth. Yeah, I’m still pretty upset I spent two hours of my life waiting for instant ramen. I really hope I can vend next year and show these people whats up